Monday, 12 May 2014
Tuesday, 6 May 2014
Today, was very positive
What a plenty in surprises kind of day it is!
My friend got into her chosen university CONGRATS and I am so happy for her honestly! ♥ -you know who you are! Well done!
And my big sister started her first job from graduating, and it's gone well so far, they seem to like her, and she may have saved a life already? She reminds me so much of Meredith Grey from Greys Anatomy
On top of that, do you remember on my previous post a while back about my Teacher that hated me, and I swear was so ruthless to me, welll..... here's the deal-e-o!
We had an entire month to write up our first coursework draft, and then she would mark it, but during this month I was going through a hard time, on-top of that university interviews (Twas tough man)! But I had to do, what I needed to do, and managed to get a D- grade? UHG I WAS SO FRUSTRATED because I wanted an A or A*!!! So I cried, it dawned on me the importance of my coursework grade that is 40% of my total English Literature grade... so she gave it back to us all to improve, and we had just a weekend to fix, and I slaved, and stayed awake each night completing and rewritting and completely changing my work around, and then comes friday due date, and I was frankly NOT satisfied with what could be a C grade, when I aim for A*!
So what to do? Well I just didnt hand it to her, I was a walking zombie, had no sleep, and worked on my essay non stop, trying to improve it, hoping she will accept it late, but she wouldnt have it! and thus she and all the head teachers were in a thread email, where she bullied me into giving it to her, and it was terr-ible- I couldnt afford a bad grade, my university will be at stake, I need a good grade! I WILL NOT ACCEPT MEDIOCRE. Ahaha, at least I will try to get the best!
So she kept sending me emails, threading in the head teachers, and it was during Easter holiday everyday I worked on my piece, and with some research on the specification online discovered so many things my teacher hadn't told us, for instance the footnote system, the way to bring in quotes and analytical interpretations, and I was shocked, so I completely re-did my work, and to my best ability, completed it, and after half-term returned to her, and begged her to accept my work, and explained my situation. She accepted it, and marked it. I bet she expected it to be a fail. UH no.

I got an A for my work, and I am grateful. From an D- to an A. Thank God. My reaction, was-----...

My friend got into her chosen university CONGRATS and I am so happy for her honestly! ♥ -you know who you are! Well done!
And my big sister started her first job from graduating, and it's gone well so far, they seem to like her, and she may have saved a life already? She reminds me so much of Meredith Grey from Greys Anatomy
On top of that, do you remember on my previous post a while back about my Teacher that hated me, and I swear was so ruthless to me, welll..... here's the deal-e-o!
We had an entire month to write up our first coursework draft, and then she would mark it, but during this month I was going through a hard time, on-top of that university interviews (Twas tough man)! But I had to do, what I needed to do, and managed to get a D- grade? UHG I WAS SO FRUSTRATED because I wanted an A or A*!!! So I cried, it dawned on me the importance of my coursework grade that is 40% of my total English Literature grade... so she gave it back to us all to improve, and we had just a weekend to fix, and I slaved, and stayed awake each night completing and rewritting and completely changing my work around, and then comes friday due date, and I was frankly NOT satisfied with what could be a C grade, when I aim for A*!
So what to do? Well I just didnt hand it to her, I was a walking zombie, had no sleep, and worked on my essay non stop, trying to improve it, hoping she will accept it late, but she wouldnt have it! and thus she and all the head teachers were in a thread email, where she bullied me into giving it to her, and it was terr-ible- I couldnt afford a bad grade, my university will be at stake, I need a good grade! I WILL NOT ACCEPT MEDIOCRE. Ahaha, at least I will try to get the best!
So she kept sending me emails, threading in the head teachers, and it was during Easter holiday everyday I worked on my piece, and with some research on the specification online discovered so many things my teacher hadn't told us, for instance the footnote system, the way to bring in quotes and analytical interpretations, and I was shocked, so I completely re-did my work, and to my best ability, completed it, and after half-term returned to her, and begged her to accept my work, and explained my situation. She accepted it, and marked it. I bet she expected it to be a fail. UH no.

I got an A for my work, and I am grateful. From an D- to an A. Thank God. My reaction, was-----...
Wednesday, 30 April 2014
How to find Love
In my recent discovery I have found that you will not find something that is in front of you, unless you stop searching high and low. The same applies for love. We all want that security, and comfort, the love and warmth daily. But, to go out into the streets, desperate and eager to stumble upon Mr Charming won’t benefit you. Honestly. I have lately been digging the roots as to how and why I should find myself Romeo, but in my attempt I discovered the misfortune behind it. Truly. There is love. I do have the optimism to believe it exists. It does. Some say it’s rare. I believe it’s something that you have to build. But the lust has to be natural. The infatuation has to be persistent. And lastly, the comfort between the two has to be in-rooted.
My imagination of ‘Love’ was: *PICTURE THIS*- A blurry pink-faded background with flowers and hearts decorated beautifully, a shining aura of happiness and scent. I envisaged me to be happy, laughing, and cute, whilst he is teasing me, tickling, and funny. I over-dose my thoughts in an opium of love.
SNAP out of this excruciating fantasy I told myself recently, this doesn’t exist. No. It’s purely a teenage wish. Of course I do want the pink faded blurry realism of love that I imagined it to be like, however, it comes in its own time. Love isn’t something that can be chased, rather we walk towards it.
To me, it is as though we are all prepared before we find love, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. The decree of love stumbles upon us once we have discovered, learnt and grown.
Thus, I figured. To fall in love you have to cue in the line. Then join the lessons, fail, re-try, then pass, and then like a building that needs no limit- build till the stars. Yes. This is me sounding so cheesy even France would refute me. But, I won’t admit that this is my view on how to find love.
If you need to camp out whilst waiting> JUST STAY PATIENT
HAHA.
Firstly, I do need to my Mr right. I will let God bring me him in its due time.
Tuesday, 29 April 2014
Life changing, words of the unforgettable love surrounding me!
BEST ADVICE I RECEIVED 4Y EARS AGO:
"Even though its hard, we just gotta see what's written for us. Its destiny. You need to think deep, read in between the lines. Why should we get upset? why what's the point? what are we gonna get out of it? nothing.
She knows who she is, and she is honestly such a good friend. Can tell when I am sad, what I need to hear, all this time, I was blind, it was right underneath my foot.
Sometimes, in life, our answers are there, we need to search, dig, and open our eyes.
♥♥♥♥♥THANK YOU :')
"Even though its hard, we just gotta see what's written for us. Its destiny. You need to think deep, read in between the lines. Why should we get upset? why what's the point? what are we gonna get out of it? nothing.
She knows who she is, and she is honestly such a good friend. Can tell when I am sad, what I need to hear, all this time, I was blind, it was right underneath my foot.
Sometimes, in life, our answers are there, we need to search, dig, and open our eyes.
♥♥♥♥♥THANK YOU :')
Friday, 25 April 2014
Thursday, 24 April 2014
Wednesday, 23 April 2014
I am Walking Zombie, super tired of this.
Today was a hectic day.
Firstly I slept last night at 5:30am! and woke up at 7AM!
I never skip breakfast, but had to have tea and run out!
And face my worst nightmare...DUN DUN DUNNN... joke, but my worst teacher student situation... on another upcoming blog.
And so my friend and neighbour called me to come over, and I need some TLC!!!
Just as I was about to leave, my little brother's friend came running to me with a bleeding ear!
I, being a soon to be pediatric, ran to help him, and cleaned him up (First aid training, thank you v.much)
And few, that was sorted, then as I now was about to leave, my sisters and I decide to laugh and have jokes, then it turns into booty shaking competition. HAHA you can imagine...
And finally, I escaped...UNTIL I had to walk my brother's friends home, (Just a little walk)
Then I went to her house, and few, knocked, waited, knocked again, pressed the doorbell, and waited, and waited, and just as I was about to leave, they open. Well hello.
We went inside, and they ordered PIZZA!!! PERFECT TIMING.
Thennnnnn, she was in a not-so-happy mood, and I felt really in need of attention, laughter, and silliness, and instead there was a lot of distance, silence, and occasional laughter inbetween the singing outburts we had. I love my friends, they are honestly inspirational, each and every single one. But I feel like I always know when something is wrong, and spend my all to help that person, and just once, sometimes, I need someone to look at me, lol, I dont intend to sound like a needy brat, but honestly, I want that reassurance that I dont have to always bottle everything inside.
I do have this 2 friends, they dont understand how much they means to me, always knows when something is wrong with me,they spends every wakening hour with me in school, and they truly amazing. I need a hug, and to tear up, and to speak. But for now, only my invisible audience on my blog can share my nonesense emotions.
So I was walking home, in the rain, and this darkness of a weekday, a beautiful pathway from her block to mines, the street lights dimmed away with my watery blinking eyes, and my over-contemplating mind.
Here's my photography shot.
^
Goodnight finally.
Monday, 21 April 2014
Made in Chelsea
Pretty much how we all feel about Alex in made in Chelsea! How can he do that to binky?
Saturday, 19 April 2014
The Indigo Child and How to Recognise one
What is an indigo child?
Google says: Indigo children, according to a pseudoscientific New Age concept, are children who are believed to possess special, unusual and sometimes supernatural traits or abilities.
How do I recognise one?
1-They have a feeling about themselves, that they are important, and often act like it, usually in the things they say, speaking from an experience they often haven't ever had.
2-The Indigo child does not always have high self esteem, but usually knows who they are before anyone else has ever figured them out. They usually recognize that they are different.
3-Indigo Children have difficulty with absolute authority (authority without explanation or choice)
4-One of the key "ingredients" of the Indigo Child, is that they are highly creative, and extremely intelligent. If they cannot be creative in the way that they think, or do something, they will fall to the clutches of our boring ritual oriented lives. These children often have new ways of thinking, and doing the same things we have been doing for years. If we open up and just listen, we will hear and see things that will amaze us.
5-Often these children come off as loners, however it is only because they rest on a different plane than the average child. Conversations with children that are not like them, are often hard to comprehend. This might be the child who would prefer to work alone on a challenging puzzle, than playing house with another child. They are always seeking betterment, without realizing it. They are not like others, and have a difficult time expressing themselves - it takes a lot out of them.
6-10. Indigo Children are not shy in letting you know what they need.
Typically these children know what they need, even before they understand why they need it. Don't always say no. Listen to their reasons for wanting or needing something. Don't always assume that they have normal childhood tendencies, expect that they have valid reasons, and try to understand them.
Now the question is, Am I an indigo child?
I feel like, I fit into the boxes, and doing some research, scary thought. But I see resemblence.
To be honest, my answer is, and only is, that I have filled this void growing up. I felt confused as a child. Did terrible things in the path of searching for something, I was hurt, upset, no one understood, and now I have experienced, and learnt. I now possess, the key, the gift, and treasure. Do you want me to share with you? And will you believe me, how beautiful this light has transformed me, it has given me all sorts of answers, opened the door of creativity and connection, a spiritual path of happiness and reform...Do you want to know how my wrecked alien being returned home without fixing the wreck? Do you wish to stumble with me a path of rocks and beautiful view, to capture the sunrise and sunset at its finest? Come, have a look.
I dont wish to be selfish... And I am merely dragging this sentence on for a reason, the reason for this delay is because the gift is hard to accept. Some people are blinded from seeing it's true essence, and other people have interpreted the golden design of it's beauty wrongfully in an attempt to impatiently and frustratedly seek it's comfort. But like a wise person will tell you, in patience lies sight to see, and in opening your eyes, with magnificent intention to see it's beauty, and an open heart, fulfilling the steps ordained to access the key, you will receive its bounty.
Okay prepare. You are here for a reason, continue this fate...
Well,since you read on, and you want to find this solace. This change, and this door of bliss... (BTW it's not heaven ahha)
I did once however try to go to the other side of the rainbow. Still figuring that one out. Omd I need to do my homework...
WAIT
Back to my point, you have to watch this video, inside this video, somewhere deep inside, you have to capture the true meaning, not the image you already hold, but it's power, with an open eye, you will see in the build of, the key. And where it lies.
Good luck.
This key is for all of us, you're not special to keep it to yourself, however you get your own one, as you build it.
Re-Read this blog now.
Okay did you re-read?
Here's the gateway to the key, you MUST faithfully finish the video patiently, humbly, and receive it's key.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wdhk2y6zFg4
Google says: Indigo children, according to a pseudoscientific New Age concept, are children who are believed to possess special, unusual and sometimes supernatural traits or abilities.
How do I recognise one?
1-They have a feeling about themselves, that they are important, and often act like it, usually in the things they say, speaking from an experience they often haven't ever had.
2-The Indigo child does not always have high self esteem, but usually knows who they are before anyone else has ever figured them out. They usually recognize that they are different.
3-Indigo Children have difficulty with absolute authority (authority without explanation or choice)
4-One of the key "ingredients" of the Indigo Child, is that they are highly creative, and extremely intelligent. If they cannot be creative in the way that they think, or do something, they will fall to the clutches of our boring ritual oriented lives. These children often have new ways of thinking, and doing the same things we have been doing for years. If we open up and just listen, we will hear and see things that will amaze us.
5-Often these children come off as loners, however it is only because they rest on a different plane than the average child. Conversations with children that are not like them, are often hard to comprehend. This might be the child who would prefer to work alone on a challenging puzzle, than playing house with another child. They are always seeking betterment, without realizing it. They are not like others, and have a difficult time expressing themselves - it takes a lot out of them.
6-10. Indigo Children are not shy in letting you know what they need.
Typically these children know what they need, even before they understand why they need it. Don't always say no. Listen to their reasons for wanting or needing something. Don't always assume that they have normal childhood tendencies, expect that they have valid reasons, and try to understand them.
Now the question is, Am I an indigo child?
I feel like, I fit into the boxes, and doing some research, scary thought. But I see resemblence.
To be honest, my answer is, and only is, that I have filled this void growing up. I felt confused as a child. Did terrible things in the path of searching for something, I was hurt, upset, no one understood, and now I have experienced, and learnt. I now possess, the key, the gift, and treasure. Do you want me to share with you? And will you believe me, how beautiful this light has transformed me, it has given me all sorts of answers, opened the door of creativity and connection, a spiritual path of happiness and reform...Do you want to know how my wrecked alien being returned home without fixing the wreck? Do you wish to stumble with me a path of rocks and beautiful view, to capture the sunrise and sunset at its finest? Come, have a look.
I dont wish to be selfish... And I am merely dragging this sentence on for a reason, the reason for this delay is because the gift is hard to accept. Some people are blinded from seeing it's true essence, and other people have interpreted the golden design of it's beauty wrongfully in an attempt to impatiently and frustratedly seek it's comfort. But like a wise person will tell you, in patience lies sight to see, and in opening your eyes, with magnificent intention to see it's beauty, and an open heart, fulfilling the steps ordained to access the key, you will receive its bounty.
Okay prepare. You are here for a reason, continue this fate...
Well,since you read on, and you want to find this solace. This change, and this door of bliss... (BTW it's not heaven ahha)
I did once however try to go to the other side of the rainbow. Still figuring that one out. Omd I need to do my homework...
WAIT
Back to my point, you have to watch this video, inside this video, somewhere deep inside, you have to capture the true meaning, not the image you already hold, but it's power, with an open eye, you will see in the build of, the key. And where it lies.
Good luck.
This key is for all of us, you're not special to keep it to yourself, however you get your own one, as you build it.
Re-Read this blog now.
Okay did you re-read?
Here's the gateway to the key, you MUST faithfully finish the video patiently, humbly, and receive it's key.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wdhk2y6zFg4







