Capturing essence

We came to the park excited and ready to soak up some summer love...My big sister and the kids were already there playing in the playground, and so I ran up to the kidds and lifted them up- played with them for a while (So glad the park was empty so I could be extra me- Crazyy!) But I had a strange feeling as soon as I stepped foot into the park. I told the kids to be careful and sensible, telling them to keep an eye on the youngest (3 year old)and off we went to the grass side and laid down the matt and us girlies sat down to picnic! But my adrenaline was high for some reason, and my head kept tilting back at the kids keeping a close eye on them- hoping nothing bad happens or dreading an accident.
YUM oreo ice-cream, and salads from tesco kept me busy for a while, until I heard a loud squeel from the playground..
and to my surprise I see the youngest my little princess Ray on some high pillar where all the other kids climbed on, she couldnt get down, so I got up and ran to her hoping she didnt attempt to get down- because ouch, that would have been an ugly sight! I managed to get her down, and told her not to climb on high places and pointed to where she can play and where she cant!

Ahh, back to the picnic, the girls were telling me to calm down, because apparantly i was over reacting and over-protecting since kids will always be 'kids'
They reminded me of when we were younger in Sweden we used to play in the woods and climb tree's without parental watch, so the kids will be fine. Okay I thought, I told myself calm down now! but I just couldnt!!

The kids came to me and asked if we could go see the ducks and swan's by the lake, so I got up (mainly because I wanted to take photos) and we went to enjoy the view, so beautiful, and mesmorising ahhhh!

OH SO BEAUTIFUL!
........But I was still anxious- and feeling strange like I had to be extra careful?
Then comes running my princess ray (3 year old) and so I grabbed her making sure she doesnt fall over the edge, and it was okay there was only the 3 little girls with me, we sat and enjoyed the view, until this family come with 4 little kids who are holding bread bits and started feeding the ducks, so the ducks came closer in search for some food! And by now the kids were begging me to feed them, and I firmly said No, we dont have bread- plus the edge wasn't so safe (easy to slip off)
My younger brothers come running with crips, and start to throw it all around, and I got a bit annoyed, told them off, but by now all the kids were surrounding the edge trying to touch and feed the birds. Ugh, I yelled out telling them to keep away, and telling Ray to come back! Everything was so calm and relaxing before this influx of kids LOOK:

Then all of a sudden, my little princess Ray fell over the edge, rolling down the stoney sand and into the ducks and BAM diving into the water, bruising her elbows a little, but she is a fighter and she is okay (Alhamdulilah!)
I became so FURIATED and yelled at the kids to go back to mummy, and picked her up, ugh. My feeling was right all this time, I could sense something was going to happen. My baby was crying, and scared. I was so annoyed, I am her aunty and I love her like she's my child ahha.
Anywhooo- her mummy came running, and everyone apologised to me saying I guess you'r senses were right. eek